Options include:

I've managed to scrape up the moxie to ask. First I need to make sure judy can cover the thursday so I can hang with tbr. Once that is confirmed I'm set to ask the boss for a month off for Italy in November.

If he says yes: GO GO GO!!!

or Go to fest AND THEN italy!

If he says no:

-dont go ( do I really need to escape my 30th birthday by traveling across the world to a place that I think I will like, but will probably be just as upset that I'm alone on my b-day and nobody cares?)

-ask for 2 weeks instead and go to Italy ( Do I really need a whole month to travel around? 2 weeks does sound too paltry to go on all those adventures)

-quit Todds and go anyways ( This job is thankless, unrewarding, not beneficial ( medically or any other way) and bad for my mental health. I am sure I am getting screwed over financially by my boss.Its only redeeming quality is that I can sew for Janna here, a job I love, but lets face it, its illegal and I think I am underpaid in this job as well)

This last option would leave me jobless, and I probably wouldnt be able to enjoy that month in Italy very well thinking about going home financially unstable. Though it would leave me free time ( all the time in the world, baby) to sew for Janna, winter months are slow for cinder+smoke. It would also prevent me from using the industrial sewing machine, which is at Todds.

To be honest we all ( EVERYBODY) know that Todds is a shitty job. Its dead end and it stifles my personality and creativity and self esteem. So perhaps the real question is wether or not I'm going to quit my job, Italy or no.