im so busy lately. I have this new job, new but old i suppose. im working for my old job at a different location, which is far from my house. i work ten hours a day, and it takes me 45 mins to get there.. and back. so thats 11.5 hours out of my day, minimum. Its not leaving me much time to do anything, if i had things i had to do. It seems im always grocery shopping. or taking money out from the bank to pay my rediculous rent or utilities. My money seems to fly out of my bank account the moment i desposit it.
I know im just getting my feet back underneath me, but somehow since coming back from oz i've had bigger goals for my life. short term goals. or perhaps just things that i need to do or get done. I mean, i've always had these goals, but now they seem a bit higher up on my list of things to do.
I have been thinking strange things lately, wanting things way out of reach for me. Like lazer eye surgery. Is that a want or a need? i have really bad eyesight. if i wear glasses my eyes look tiny, and i get huge headaches. so i wear contacts 24-7, literally. im sure its not healthy for my eyes. To get lazer surgery it would cost at least $5000 for me.
$5000. i wonder if i will ever get that money together?
lazer surgery is the tip of the ice burg. maybe the most expensive, but its there all the same. I need dental work done, and there are things i would like to buy for myself. like a humidifyer. and a mirror. i'd love to get cable, if only to get the food network and the national geographic channel. but i think that is delving into wants, not needs.
its hard to think about all of the things i want, when it all seem so far away. Good lord. i would LOVE to have a car, so i could get better jobs and more money. what a vicious cycle. so i work heaps, to catch up on bills, and complain about my living situation and how i have no time, while i take the time to type this out. ha.
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