tick tick tick tick

Could things get more complicated?



about once every 3 years I get into situations where I have 3-ish potential boys running around in my head. It only happends every 3 years, and usually I end up making a bad decision and then remain single for the next 3 years. Im not sure why these boys dont space themselves out, it would be greatly beneficial to them, and me.



Lately this has happened again. I suspect that it is because since my travels I think in a different way, therefore I see others in a different way as well. I dont think it means I have lowered my standards, just that my standards have changed. For some reason I am more wired towards getting married and having babies, which is really quite weird for me. But come to think of it, I know that I have had a body change ( like puberty or menopause, it happeneds about 4-5 times in a womans life) in this last year, so perhaps that might be a part of it too. strange, I never put that together until now.



Anywhoo. I have made some bad choices already, had some sexual relationships with an exes best friend, turns out the ex still had feelings for me, even though the feelings werent reciprocated back at him etc etc. So things are finally getting back to normal-ish with the ex, were are hanging out and going to movies etc, being friends, when all of a sudden he starts flirting with me. For me this is really confusing and it makes me feel like a dirty ho. He knows that something happened between myself and his best friend, but he still wants to hump me? This baffles my mind. and kind of grosses me out. So either he doesnt know, or he does and doesnt care. Theres a pretty huge difference there

While all this drama is going on, I have also met another boy who is nice and cute and fun. Unfortunately he is kind of young, though im not sure how young. He is also kind of scenestery, in a high profile band, which is good for him, but not so much for me. It makes me feel preassured into being cooler or funnier or prettier. I suppose I should take the time to remember that he asked ME out and that age doesnt matter, unless you are a 28 year old woman hearing time ticking for the first time.

This post makes me feel like a hussy. but if its only every 3 years, thats not so bad right?
happy st.pattys day tmrw kids, dont forget to wear green so you wont get pinched!